Thursday, 26 July 2012

By Heart.


I have always been a different person; (or so i thought) from the things I choose to own, to the choices I make in life. I guess the peculiar things are attracted to me. Or me to them, whatever. It works and you get my point.
 As a child I wanted to be a land surveyor. *crickets creek creek* I know, what the hell? No one in my family is that!!!!!  I don’t know what those people do; I never got to do a background check. I don’t care anymore so they can just be. In my opinion if you wake up you feel i want to be a security guard, do just that! I have a feeling you will be happier where your heart is because home is where your heart is.
My friends could say, i want to be a pilot, i want to be an Eng., i want to be a nurse, i want to be a teacher, blah. It was all Greek to me. As a child i was super bright! My siblings called me a genius. As a first grader i could give a fourth grade pupil a run for their money in reading. It mattered to me. I enjoyed reading story books as my siblings did chemistry and maths, bio, geography and physics and what not. Most are my elder.
In primary things were quite smooth and I somehow made it through the canes and canes and more canes. I never got used to them I used to cry so bad each and every time. In class six, something happened and my life changed. We were given a math test without choices and I freaked out, I failed.  Math and i divorced. Anything with digits gave me a hard time from then on, I just didn’t care enough to recover and go back to being good at it. It wasn’t my place anymore. We were over.
In secondary it got worse, id read humongous novels at the backbench, never completed my assignments or homework’s. Puh! Any input would go out with the teacher. Typical teenager. Anyway my point is, i lost interest.  At some point i thought i was being crude to myself but somehow it was a call. :D
By the time i was in my second year in high school, i knew where my heart stood. What i wanted to be. Not for the money, not for the fame, but i knew i was going to be a happy person. Do what your heart wants. You will be happy and that’s what matters most.
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Monday, 25 June 2012

SPARE ME THE ‘FAME’.


I am not a common-stuff (aka Kenya Uniform) person ain’t tryna justify myself or anything but I really do not like having stuff that fananas like nanis. It really pisses me off!!! End of story.
Ok ok. I know ending there won’t make sense because I have to tell you why.  I love myself so much I will not struggle to fit in when I really was born to stand out. I am soon going for my internship and in case there is going to be an interview, I don’t want to sound like I’m from Mars or Venus.  So I am making a point to read newspapers and watch news at least daily. Yes, I have to make a trip to the school library daily. Funny enough it’s actually a good sport, the librarian knows me as the last to leave.  I am equally surprised.
My story is, I saw this chick with a phone like mine!!! I know I’m not that special or own anything that looks customized or anything. But my heart sank! I really hope that the ‘torch’ I have won’t be as common as an Ideot coz I honestly do not know what I will do. Saving that for later, I also noticed I don’t like being noticed for all the wrong reasons or for a season. ;) That’s just me. Then, i have to keep myself from the tongue-lashers and the ‘Google-search’ of this institution. Trust me when they start researching about you sweetheart they will know how your brain works.
Result? Avoid groups! I do not say thou shall not have friends but careful what you feed or leash to your ‘besties’. I might be called selfish or an antisocial. That’s better than being a crowd pleaser, I got a life too. Well wishes to my opposition though, thanks for noticing that I am better than twenty of you put together and loving me for my ambition. {*giggles* no diss.}
Other than that, I noticed my fame-phobic habits go deep down to my wardrobe. I am one person who would rather go to an open market and go the whole hog for the just in fashion rather than catwalk into an exhibition and buy things our housie will own three months from now... feel me? In short, spare yourself the seasonal fame and stand out. It feels good. Once you go classy you never go back.
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MY VIEW ABOUT THE NEWS.


I just love the way writers have a way with words. I burst into unexpected laughter when I saw a headline that read ‘Time to tame political prostitution.’ What is political prostitution? I cannot explain, only speculate. People have had enough of the political madness and are going to call it anything that satisfies them. I am however not for them so yeah go ahead.
I support all those civilians killing the lions that are raiding people’s farms and bringing the farmers back to square one. I mean, seriously? Last week was 28 sheep and today 10 goats? Okay. The authorities in charge should have their priorities right. Face the goddamn park!!! Are they going to wait till we don’t have any livestock left? And then the butchers will start selling lion meat, huh? We are bringing this to ourselves. Look into it with wisdom, protocol can be wrong when you don’t know where the problem began. Alternatively they can transfer those animals to the Tsavo and make that land a playground for all we care.
 Some University students got to be kidding. They are going to strike for the zillionth time this year? Do they get paid to do that? Is that their priority? No, wait; do they know what they are doing? They threaten to demonstrate and the ones inciting them already have their lavish apartments and sleek cars rubbing their goatees as they watch you waste your precious opportunities to make your lives. You thought it’s a right? Wait till your faces are vividly displayed on the screens and you have to be expelled.  Anyway, life is full of choices; all you have to do is make sure the one you make is right.
 CCK has wanted to switch off fake handsets since I was born. Isn’t it time? Stop pleasing us. Act! My bad but thanks, we know you are not in office for fun but if you are going to do something stop postponing. It’s annoying just so you know. Like a lazy kid who keeps walking the whole house chanting “I’m going to do the dishes mum, I’m going to do the dishes!” so that they aren’t given anything else to do. Shut those fake phones tonight if you are serious.
Lastly, I would like to ask what Kenya has done to Somalia to deserve these bombs, grenades and threats or who is it that is behind all this? I can’t lie I’m so scared to the blood vessels, half of Nairobi’s population is in the CBD and a quarter of the others pop in and out. Yesterday a nine year old boy died at the bomb scene in Mombasa. He didn’t even have a clue? I know no one deserves to die that’s why I’m worried and afraid.    

Thursday, 17 May 2012

The ‘c’ word.



No, it’s not what you are thinking; it’s C for change. Got you! Change can be good but it doesn’t always feel good. Why? It’s not easy to begin with. It is unsettling and terrifying for most of us, but we have to sometimes. Change is constant in all our lives whether we choose to notice it or not. Learn how to embrace it, it’s the most valuable tool in helping you be enthusiastic about the new you.
Changing shouldn’t be rocket science (pun intended) no matter what kind of transition we are going through. You only attract the things you have energy for, that’s why you ought to have positive beliefs about change, life and yourself. An optimistic attitude is the cornerstone of change. You may not have chosen the change that is taking place in your life but you get to choose your beliefs around it.
With change, something good will always be dragged into your life. All you need to do is hold on, be resilient and persistent. Being alive, we all survived some ‘worst moment’ in our past. There’s a truth in that; you can handle much than you think. We all must know that fear walks hand in hand with change. Ignoring it won’t make it go away. Admit it. Fear, guilt and impatience are there to get your attention and direct you to more positive ones. The faster you accept or choose change, the less the pain and hardship will be. In that change period, surround yourself with people who can help and have an optimistic mindset and create an environment that supports change.
There are practical basics of change by Arianne de Bonvoisin the change guru: that can help you move that can help you move that mountain:
               Don’t forget to seed: sleep well, eat well, exercise and drink water. Be healthy during adjustment times. Every little thing feels more overwhelming when you are hungry or tired. Keep moving: coping with change can leave you feeling frustrated, take a walk, jog or skip rope. Exercise is a mood booster and clears your head.                                                                             Unload weak and negative thoughts: put your anxieties down on paper, helps you come to terms with changes and get through them quicker.                                                                                    Create a ‘wall of change’: put notes and pictures that make you feel excited about change. It could be a photo of someone who inspires you or an empowering quote, verse, or even a word. It’s easier to keep an eye on your goals when they’re literally spread out in front of you.
Don’t bite more than you can chew and I won’t dish out more than you can take. Take action, have a plan and take care of yourself. Change is good. Take it one day at a time, you’ll get there.

FOOD ENOUGH.



Music is food for the soul, without it we would be starving our souls. Just like one cannot stay long enough without food. Where would we be without music anyway?  Everyone somehow loves music, the only difference being the genres that make us tick. Think of a world without music. The thought of it brings depression. Automatically.
 I once saw a t-shirt graffiti that read “music is a weapon. The only difference is that when it hits, you don’t feel the pain.” That was creative enough to open up my mind to a million avenues of this vast field. There are those of us who like either soft and low, hard, fast, slow or just loud music. We don’t react the same in situations, which is why you will find people loving different genres.
Music is more specific about what it expresses than words written about those expressions could ever be. That music has the power to express, convey and bring up powerful emotions without question. However, the issue of music's moral and ethical power, and how that power affects individuals and societies, is one that receives very little attention in our world today. Ancient cultures held strong beliefs in the moral and ethical power of music and as such it was very important for artists within those cultures to exercise a certain moral and ethical responsibility in their creative activities. 
Music has so much therapeutic effect on all who are associated with it. They say garbage in garbage out. The kind of music has effects on our behavioural change. We all ought to listen to our favourite tunes often, this way we subconsciously change. A research was once conducted on how music affects people or rather animals. They put rats in cubicles and played different genres of music in each and on different volumes. They found out that the rat exposed to soft  the one music was calm and relaxed but the ones that were in loud fast music were wild and fierce.  
This music too affects their makers. As the musician constantly adjusts decisions on tempo, tone, style, rhythm, phrasing and feeling, they trains the brain to become incredibly good at organizing and conducting numerous activities at once. Approximately 90% of the brain's motor control capabilities are devoted to the hands, mouth and throat. With this in mind, experts say that the fine skilfulness involved with playing a violin can exercise the entire brain and stimulate general intelligence.
Music also extends its mercies and blessings to children as musical training has been found to improve how the brain processes the spoken word. This finding could lead to improving the reading ability of children who have reading problems. These people who take keen interest on music are more self-confident and better able to express their ideas. The skills gained through sequential music instruction, including discipline and the ability to analyze, solve problems, communicate and work cooperatively, are vital for success in the current workplace.
Music is also used for different purposes. For one, music can be very therapeutic, one can be feeling low but you just turn up your stereo and in a few minutes things change and it’s certainly a better world. Sometimes one can be bubbly and all but a song comes on and they are torn apart to tears. This simply means with time we get connected to what we put our ears through and through and the lyrics of the songs and the beats work magic.
Through another research carried out in the US, students at risk of not successfully completing their high school educations show that arts participation motivates them to stay in school. The arts create a supportive environment that promotes constructive acceptance of criticism and one in which it is safe to take risks. With music in schools, students connect to each other greater friendship, fewer fights, less racism and reduced use of hurtful sarcasm. High school students who participate in band or orchestra report the lowest lifetime and current use of all drugs, sex and other unruly behaviour.
Music has made the world a better place. Now, people are employed courtesy of music and have food on their table. Without it, we would forget the radio presenters, disc jockeys, radio studios or even owners. Things would be plain like a church with only recitals to make or a wedding with only vows and speeches. People get to relax after a long week of hard work and unwind merrily with drinks and good music.
Despise not, the good thing that came long ago that has helped us pass information and made a change in most of our lives. Go on and plug those earpieces in and keep that world on the move.

The “all’s” and “nothing’s” of love.



So it’s February again and it’s time to paint the town red and love; as they say is in the air. Huge sums of Money are being spent, people are sulking for not being taken out on a treat, others getting worked up because of the pressure, some broke and wishing that guy spending a fortune on this lousy day could just pay his bills. We all have our views and as far as I’m concerned everyone is entitled to their own opinion about anything and everything but we got to talk about other things that come with the reason behind celebrating this day.
What’s love to you, does it count, and does it still make sense? After my years of spinning back, forth, round and round the things it put me through, I can say love will never die. You see, we all get in relationships for one reason or another. All the reasons narrow down to trial and error and do or die. It’s not easy to find two people with the same motive in as much as they will talk about it, what matters is that which they are not saying.
Love starts from far and wide; when a mother holds their wailing baby in that hospital bed and they too are bursting with tears of joy. A four year old boy who wouldn’t let you hurt his one year old sister. Mother hen scratching anything that comes near her chicks. A rhino staying single after their one spouse dies. And the one we are vividly familiar with; prince charming in shining armour living happily ever after with that princess that makes them bubbly after a trying and challenging day.  But that doesn’t put the end to the list.
“What we crave most in this world is connection. For some people it happens at first sight. It’s when you know you know. Its fate working its magic. That’s good for them; they get to live in a pop song, ride the express train; and a bonus of a fairy tale ending. But that’s not the way it really works. For the rest of us it’s less romantic, complicated, and messy. It’s about horrible timing and fumbled opportunities. And not being able to say what you need to say, when you need to say it.” (The switch, film 2010)
  My point is there is someone for everyone and when that time comes your world will stop spinning and everything will fall into place, fate will work its magic and you will be connected. When you stop chasing love that’s when it finds you, when you least expect it. Don’t stress when your stuff don’t follow the script in your head. Most things don’t work the way we expect them to but we got to still hope for the best but prepare for the worst, just in case.
Lastly I’d like to straighten things and take a stand. Things might never have been right for you in your past endeavours and commitments, that doesn’t mean you turn your back against the most beautiful things in life. Good things come to those who wait and I have to say no one has to work so hard because fate will take care of that and trust me when it does, that feeling you can’t describe will make perfect sense.


Wednesday, 16 May 2012

Exempting the fun.



With everything these days skyrocketing from call rates to fuel prices, we need help pronto!  If there’s one positive thing about the global recession, it’s the placing of the fine line between wants and needs. With time (and indulgence) the line has become invisible and we are actually beginning to think that we need what we just wanted initially.
Attaching an element of entertainment to almost every activity makes our wants look like needs. This will definitely make our lives stressful and very expensive in a way that one will go to bed hungry Monday evening just because they went out all weekend.
In as much as entertainment has been made a human need, it doesn’t have to cost you a fortune or even happen all the time. It’s not speculated how much you should spend on luxuries and  entertainment but  it doesn’t make sense to overspend on unnecessary things  today only to be broke the next day. 
The secret is to use what you already have to enjoy the good old fashioned way. For clothes; that’s where accessories come in handy, make them work for you and save you the headache of shopping for new outfits each time you have a function or event. For entertainment, you can decide to have a nice home cooked meal and enjoy the privacy of your home instead of a crowded restaurant and painfully slow waiters.
Eat before you go shopping, this way, you will not be tempted by all those snacks displayed by the till to bait you. Its like those things scream ‘buy mee buy mee’ *ghostly moan* Exercise at home. It occupies your time and it is free of charge! If you must go on holiday then do so during the low season when the prices are low and favorable.
When all is said and done and you have actually re-sketched your line between your needs and wants, entertain yourself as a reward. Motivate yourself to achieve your goals and targets, as this will help you appreciate and look forward to the treat and it stops being a routine that is tagged to your financial side of life.

Sunday, 15 April 2012

Love Yourself Edition.

There are days put up to commemorate people occasions and things. Since maybe you haven't put yourself somewhere on a map doesn't mean you are a nobody. Make everyday your day. 
The following words have been adopted from a song by India Arie- Video. 
These are all the words that i wanna say in 3 minutes and 46 seconds. bottom line, you are love and love is you. If you cant love yourself, no ones gonna love you. say this to yourself every time you doubt your confidence.


""Sometimes I shave my legs and sometimes I don't


Sometimes I comb my hair and sometimes I won't

Depend on how the wind blows I might even paint my toes

It really just depends on whatever feels good in my soul

I'm not the average girl from your video

and I ain't built like a supermodel
 
But, I learned to love myself unconditionally

Because I am a queen

My worth is not determined by the price of my clothes

No matter what I'm wearing I will always be me
 
When I look in the mirror and the only one there is me

Every freckle on my face is where it's supposed to be

And I know my creator didn't make no mistakes on me

My feet, my thighs, my lips, my eyes; I'm lovin' what I see

Am I less of a lady if I don't wear pantyhose?

My mama said a lady ain't what she wears but, what she knows

But, I've drawn a conclusion, it's all an illusion, confusion's the name of the
 game

A misconception, a vast deception

Something's gotta change

Don't be offended this is all my opinion
 
ain't nothing that I'm sayin law

This is a true confession of a life learned lesson I was sent here to share with y'all

So get in where you fit in go on and shine

Clear your mind, now's the time

Put your salt on the shelf

Go on and love yourself

'Cuz everything's gonna be all right

Keep your fancy drinks and your expensive minks

I don't need that to have a good time

Keep your expensive car and your caviar

All I need is my guitar

Keep your Kristal and your pistol

I'd rather have a pretty piece of crystal

Don't need your silicon I prefer my own

What God gave me is just fine........'""

if i say more i might spoil the moment.

my solitude :{

Sometimes i love MY silence/noise. That's why most times id rather hop onto a quiet matatu and get to my destination silently!!! (note the number of times i have used silent/quiet). If the silence is too defeaning id plug my earphones on and defean my drums. 
Over Easter this year we happened to be going for a trip. Do you know what time we were to leave for wherever??? At 8 in the am. Thats normal. Right?? Of course. And do you know what time we left? At 5.42 in the pm!!!  Thats nothing close to african timing. Its simple. People should buy watches or just simply learn how to interpret the ones we are using. *smh*
my motivation  comes from what i was going thru in the bus... By the time people were drunk on cheap liquor. Shouting shady insults and doing shady moves to the shady and overplayed jams and mixes. This is travelling!!! Not some local bar you just dropped into to get your'two for the road'. 
These very uncivilized people give you hell and they really dont get what it is you are supposed to do. I mean, this is campus and you just hold your horses and get over the post-highschool excitement and chill. You are on your way to adulthood sucker! Anyway, those are just my two cents and no judgement or hard feelings.

Wednesday, 28 March 2012

SPARE ME THE ‘FAME’.

I am not a common-stuff (aka Kenya Uniform) person ain’t tryna justify myself or anything but I really do not like having stuff that fananas like nanis. It really pisses me off!!! End of story.
Ok ok. I know ending there won’t make sense because I have to tell you why.  I love myself so much I will not struggle to fit in when I really was born to stand out. I am soon going for my internship and in case there is going to be an interview, I don’t want to sound like I’m from Mars or Venus.  So I am making a point to read newspapers and watch news at least daily. Yes, I have to make a trip to the school library daily. Funny enough it’s actually a good sport, the librarian knows me as the last to leave.  I am equally surprised.
My story is, I saw this chick with a phone like mine!!! I know I’m not that special or own anything that looks customized or anything. But my heart sank! I really hope that the ‘torch’ I have won’t be as common as an Ideot coz I honestly do not know what I will do. Saving that for later, I also noticed I don’t like being noticed for all the wrong reasons or for a season. ;) That’s just me. Then, i have to keep myself from the tongue-lashers and the ‘Google-search’ of this institution. Trust me when they start researching about you sweetheart they will know how your brain works.
Result? Avoid groups! I do not say thou shall not have friends but careful what you feed or leash to your ‘besties’. I might be called selfish or an antisocial. That’s better than being a crowd pleaser, I got a life too. Well wishes to my opposition though, thanks for noticing that I am better than twenty of you put together and loving me for my ambition. {*giggles* no diss.}
Other than that, I noticed my fame-phobic habits go deep down to my wardrobe. I am one person who would rather go to an open market and go the whole hog for the just in fashion rather than catwalk into an exhibition and buy things our housie will own three months from now... feel me? In short, spare yourself the seasonal fame and stand out. It feels good. Once you go classy you never go back.
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