When the year started out I promised myself that I will
write a blog post every waking day; no matter how cringe worthy it could be.
But look at me. Two months into the year with one post I shabbily drafted.
Reason (read excuse) number one that I do not yet have a 20th
post this year is that I am a perfectionist. You should see my draft book. I have
summaries upon summaries upon summaries of articles that I have told myself
that I am going to research on. It sits in there as if it’s meant to structure
itself into something meaningful. Then over time I lose the fire. It’s a habit I’m
trying to tame though. I don’t just rumble on because at times I visit my older
posts and I see why editors reject my work. It’s not even funny. I will not
apologize to being a perfectionist though.
When I say I’m going to research on something, I do. Most of
the time. The whole thing turns into a rolling ball of creativity and I tell
myself ‘this can be developed into a novel or short story’ and leave it for
further development.
It made me realize I
have a problem summarizing, but there is too much information I want to put out
there regardless. At times it stays in my folders till it’s stale (like a post
meant for valentines –s.m.h). We all have that thing we put away. Unfortunately,
I have realized all the above reasons I have given are actually excuses.
I have made a pact with myself that each week I shall try
and get out all that I can. As an aspiring writer I need to get out all the bad
writings. In other words, practice makes perfect. Whatever art you are sitting
on, push yourself harder, it pays. Enjoy your weekend. xx
